Life and not the Cereal

So it's been an interesting day.

I had 3 exams, in my 3 hardest classes. Music history, Music Theory, and German. I honestly don't know if i passed any of them. So I am kinda worried about that.

I have my jury 2mro. For those of you who don't know what that is, it's where I go in front of the entire voice faculty and sing for them. I have been practicing my songs all semester and now and I have to show them what I got. I'm really not that nervous, and feel prepared. And though I say that now, but I know come noon 2mro I will be freaking out. But I still have a good feeling about it.

Now for the deep stuff...

Today I heard that one of my best friend's friends from home were involved in a terrible car accident. She, obviously, is in shock and struck with grief. And I went to talk to her, because I have had my fair share of death these last few weeks. And I did my best to console her, but even with everything i've gone through these last few weeks I still had no clue what to say to her. She went on to say all the negative things that went along with the accident. I did my best to cheer her up by telling her that there always is a positive.

So here's my positive...

Sarah's death made me realize so much about myself.

I don't want to hide myself from people anymore. You don't know when death will creep up on us, and take us or the ones we love. So, i don't want to go on pretending to be someone else. If I was to be gone 2mro, how would the people I care for the most think of me? Would they have good memories, and would they be the truth. Or will they know Mike with a mask to protect himself from harassment, and pain that life has thrown at him over years. So, now I try to be as honest as I can, with still taking into consideration people's feelings and beliefs.

Another big thing, is i'm starting to put into perspective of who are truly my friends, and who i want to spend my time with. If I was go 2mro, who would I want my final moments to be with? What are the memories I want to make with them?

I am so grateful for everyone in my life. There are so many great things in my life that i have been blessed with. The people in my life have shaped me to I am and I love that.

It seems like whenever I take a survey on Facebook I get asked..."If you could go back in time, what is one thing you would change?" and honestly, and wouldn't change anything. I may not like everything that has happened to me over the last 20 years (wow, it's still hard to believe that I'm 20...buh). But everything that has happened to me has shaped me into who I am. and though it may not always show, I love who I am, and who I am learning that I am. I don't have everything figured out yet, but I'm getting there, and I'm enjoying the path that I'm taking.

There's so much to be happy about, why waste it.


Now watch 2mro i'm gonna be the grumpiest person in the world! ^_^