Bring it on.....Not the Cheerleader Movie

So it's been a long and basically uneventful break....kinda like I knew it would...

I'm still working at ACE...

I still have no money...

but at least I have internet, and I'm bored....so let's see what wisdom I and conjure up...I think that's the word I was looking for...



So recently I saw a movie called "How Do You Know?" and I loved it. It basically explained my life in it's current state, but through the situations of the life someone else. That sounds weird, but so am I. It really got me to think about a lot of things, and I really recommend it to everyone reading this.

I was about to type somthing else and facebook distracted me and I forgot...

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still dont remember

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..o ya I was gonna tell you about the quotes..

So the movie had a few quotes that I really like:
     ~ We're all just one small adjustment from making our life's work
     ~ A good idea is one that you don't have to think about
     ~ Figure out what you want and learn to ask for it
     ~ When your in something you gotta give it everything you got or else what are you doing?

Those were the ones that stuck with me....do with them as you might...


I'd also like to thanks those of you that i've been talking to lately...I've been going through an interesting time lately and you've all helped a lot....i haven't been going through a bad time.....just interesting....

I really want to send a great appreciation out to my older brother Bob and my cousins AJ and Clancy... though we haven't been really close over the years...I really hope to see that change, and I have a good feeling it will...Bob, lately I've felt closer to you than I have with any family member (with the exception of Busia, but you know how that works) and i really love it....and AJ and Clancy, I'm glad you two know about my mustache and I can tell that you do care and I love you both a lot for just being you, you've always made me smile when i had to deal with the ridiculousness of my mom and riley when we're around you

This break has really made think about who and what's really important to me, and I can't wait to see where my life is about to take me...

After i leave my Dad's house in less than 2 weeks, I will be leaving for a new Home...I will be staying in Mount Pleasant this summer, and finally be on my own...it's scary, but I'm so ready and so excited. Life is really good if you live it right.


Bring it on.

I got internets in grand ole RC

Well, I've had trouble falling asleep since I got home. So let's see if this helps...


I started working again yesterday, a 10 hour shift, and another today and an 11 2mro....buh

but w/e I'll make some money....

I'm already ready to head back mount pleasant...

I need to get a job there

but I think the main reason I am so ready for it because I will be going back as a resident of Mount Pleasant. This summer I am stayin in my apartment, and that means not comign back to RC!!!! I'm so excited.

I'm currently listening to Julie Andrews sing God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen....so good

I want to travel....i decided that for spring break next year i want to go to Chicago, and to New York the year after that....and who know the year after that

I know this is another kinda boring one, but w/e I'm writing your reading...it's all good

I finished Reading HP and the Deathly Hallows.....SO EPIC!!!!!!!!

I'm complaining a lot cuz I'm in RC, but I'm still pretty happy, things aren't ideal....but they're good...

i'm playing Clarinet for Christmas eve mass...

I'd like to sing but my sinus probs r messing with that...

I'm tired....

My mind is going a mile a minute on the weirdest topics....I just thought about harry potter and 101 dalmatians, and then easter.....

It's time for bed....i'm not even gonna advertise this one on facebook like I have the others



life's good....live it

Headin' on out

Well this will probs be my last blog for awhile. I am going home 2mro, and more than likely won't have internet til I get back to school in 30 days. And I don't like that fact one bit! Not only will I not be up to date on my facebook gossip, but I also won't be able to play mousehunt!

Anyways...I have been really thankful for this semester. I've had a lot of time to think about it today, and this has been one heck of a semester. It's had so many ups and downs I'm surprised I haven't gotten motion sickness.

My grades aren't amazing...but also aren't bad. My friendships have changed so much. Some people that I thought I was going to get super close with, ended up getting on my last nerve, and others that I thought would just be there, ended up helping me the most. I love it.

It just goes to show that you don't know what life is going to throw at you. But that is what makes it fun and worth living. Though the ride is almost never a smooth ride, the checkpoints and the final destination are so worth it.

I think I should be a writer sometimes, cuz this is fun. But then I'd have to good at things like grammar and spelling....I think I'll sick with music.

I don't want to go back to Rogers City. I feel at home here, and finally feel like I really belong.

I love everything that's happened to me lately, even the not so good.

I do miss my Busia, and will enjoy seeing her again...but I don't want to leave.

Right now I am rambling cuz I am bored and have nothing else to do. I'm sorry if this is getting boring lol.

I think I'll end with a random poem that I found via Yahoo Search:

Friendship isn't always easily described. The Eskimos, they say, have a hundred different words for snow. Unfortunately, the English language isn't quite as innovative, though it has vast opportunities to differentiate meaning. Certainly, Love is one of those opportunities. And so, too, is Friendship.
Instead of different words, however, we're stuck with simple adjectives. Close friend. Best friend. Childhood friend. Intimate friend. Trusted friend. Beloved friend. But whether you use adjectives or different words, few could deny the nearly infinite meaning in such a simple word.
Friends are special people. We can't pick our family, and we're sorely limited in the number of them at any rate. Society and mores (and often our own conscience) dictate we select a single mate. But our friends can be as diverse and infinite as the adjectives we choose. Our friends, in a very real sense, reflect the choices we make in life.

Times, they are a changin'

So much happening, and so little at the same time.

As of 11:05 tomorrow (Friday, December 10th) I will be done with my 3rd semester as a college student. Though it's been a rough semester and I'm glad it's over, I don't wanna leave. I love it here. I've moved on from the life of a small town Rogers City kids. I just want to stay here with the people I have come to know and love.

I failed. Tuesday I had my singing jury, and I didn't pass. I was confused, I thought I had done a great job, but I guess it wasn't great enough. I'm fine now, I got a lot of support from my friend's and they really helped in putting everything in the right perspective. I'd like to give extra thanks to Tim, whether he reads this or not, he was the one who actually got me outta bed and to stop being so mopey. 

I'm excited for next semester, I've come to learn so much about myself this year that I can't wait to see what happens in the future. Though I don't know what's coming...I'm still sehr excited.

Yesterday I watched a movie with some friends called "Remember Me"with Rob Patt. It was really good, until the last 5 minutes when I couldn't stop crying...and I don't usually cry at movies. But it started and ended with the same quote, and it really struck a chord with me, so I'd like to end with it. Take it for what you will, but I hope it does something for you as it has for me.

Whatever you do in life will be
insignificant but it is very
important that you do it because...
 

You can't know...
 

You can't ever really know the
meaning of your life...
 

And you don't need to...
 

Just know that your life has a meaning...
Every life has a meaning... 

whether it lasts one hundred years or one
hundred seconds...
 

Every life... 

And every death... 

changes the world in its own way...
 

Ghandi knew this. He knew his life
would mean something to someone,
somewhere, somehow. And he knew
with as much certainty that he
could never know that meaning...
 

He understood that enjoying life
should be of much greater concern
then understanding it.
And so do I.
 

You can't know...
 

So don't take it for granted...
 

But don't take it too seriously...
 

Don't postpone what you want...
 

Don't leave anything misunderstood...
 

Make sure the people you care about know...
 

Make sure they know how you really feel...
 

Because just like that...
 

It could end

I wish everyone the best in all they do, and ask that we make every day worth it, for you don't know when it will be your last

Life and not the Cereal

So it's been an interesting day.

I had 3 exams, in my 3 hardest classes. Music history, Music Theory, and German. I honestly don't know if i passed any of them. So I am kinda worried about that.

I have my jury 2mro. For those of you who don't know what that is, it's where I go in front of the entire voice faculty and sing for them. I have been practicing my songs all semester and now and I have to show them what I got. I'm really not that nervous, and feel prepared. And though I say that now, but I know come noon 2mro I will be freaking out. But I still have a good feeling about it.

Now for the deep stuff...

Today I heard that one of my best friend's friends from home were involved in a terrible car accident. She, obviously, is in shock and struck with grief. And I went to talk to her, because I have had my fair share of death these last few weeks. And I did my best to console her, but even with everything i've gone through these last few weeks I still had no clue what to say to her. She went on to say all the negative things that went along with the accident. I did my best to cheer her up by telling her that there always is a positive.

So here's my positive...

Sarah's death made me realize so much about myself.

I don't want to hide myself from people anymore. You don't know when death will creep up on us, and take us or the ones we love. So, i don't want to go on pretending to be someone else. If I was to be gone 2mro, how would the people I care for the most think of me? Would they have good memories, and would they be the truth. Or will they know Mike with a mask to protect himself from harassment, and pain that life has thrown at him over years. So, now I try to be as honest as I can, with still taking into consideration people's feelings and beliefs.

Another big thing, is i'm starting to put into perspective of who are truly my friends, and who i want to spend my time with. If I was go 2mro, who would I want my final moments to be with? What are the memories I want to make with them?

I am so grateful for everyone in my life. There are so many great things in my life that i have been blessed with. The people in my life have shaped me to I am and I love that.

It seems like whenever I take a survey on Facebook I get asked..."If you could go back in time, what is one thing you would change?" and honestly, and wouldn't change anything. I may not like everything that has happened to me over the last 20 years (wow, it's still hard to believe that I'm 20...buh). But everything that has happened to me has shaped me into who I am. and though it may not always show, I love who I am, and who I am learning that I am. I don't have everything figured out yet, but I'm getting there, and I'm enjoying the path that I'm taking.

There's so much to be happy about, why waste it.


Now watch 2mro i'm gonna be the grumpiest person in the world! ^_^

=)

I finally got my quesadilla

These are a few of my favorite things...

Last night, though it was short, was one of the best nights sleep I've had in a long time. So I'm gonna try to write a lot cuz I like sleep and I like people to get to know me.

I haven't been this happy in a long time. Even though I attended a funeral today, I couldn't be happier. Last night I had an amazing heart to heart with my older brother. He spread the word on to 2 of my cousins that I care for dearly and am so happy that they are in on me growing a mustache.

I have laughed and smiled so much today. And I love it.

I barely ever see my mom's side of the family, and that's something that really bugs me. I love them all very much and wish I was around more.

Tonight I watched one of my favorite movies and hung out with some of my favorite people, and it felt so right.

I love texting by the way. It's so convenient. I love getting them from certain people. Sometimes they can complicate things, because you're not entirely sure the "tone" the person is writing with. But one my  most favorite things is falling asleep while still in a texting conversation. Then you know that in the morning someone will think about you when they wake up.

I'm so happy and I want everyone to know it.




Now let's see if I can get some sleep, I have a big test in the morning and need to get some shut eye.

=(

My brother didn't take me to taco bell......still no quesadilla

Houston we have our 1st Blog

So I have no clue what I'm doing...just gonna throw that one out there now.

So here I am, sitting on my bed in my dorm. Alone. Waiting for my brother to pick me up to head out to a funeral in morning. It's currently 11:53 pm and I am bored. Besides that, I am also a plethora of emotions.

I am excited. I have my music jury next week (Tuesday at 2:36 pm). I real extremely confident about it and can't wait to get it over with and start some new music next semester.

I am tired. It has been a long semester. In addition to a German Class that has been kicking my ass, I have had of personal issues that I have been fighting my way through. But I think I finally see the light at the end of the tunnel.

I am scared. I don't know what my future holds. I don't like not knowing.

I am sad. Though the semester has been long, I love it here and don't want to go back to Rogers City in less than 2 weeks.

I am hopeful. I have been neglectful of some friendships over the past semester or two, but I think there is a much better relationship between me and those people. I also have started to get to know someone that I was afraid to for a long time. And these few days have caused me to go to bed with a smile on my face, because they are so much more than I thought they were.

I am cold. Maybe I'll grab my blanket.

I am angry. I constantly feel like I am ignored by my family. They don't care to understand that I am not the 10 year "Mikey" anymore. That was 10 years ago. I have changed a little. Not only am I 2 feet taller, but I think for myself now. I have my own schedule and I can't drop every single thing at the drop of a hat. When I make a commitment to something, I stay committed and will not be strayed. I do things that I believe is right for me, not you. I love to do things for other people, but I have learned that you will have no sense of who you are, if you don't think of yourself every once in awhile.

It's 12:04 now.

I am changing. I am not the same person I was when I moved in this semester. But I don't regret anything. I have realized that some people are not who I thought they were, both for the good and the not so good.

I am hungry. I hope when my brother gets here that he'll take me to Taco Bell. I've been craving a quesadilla for the last few days.

I am still childish. I love Disney and always will. Insignificant drama still effects me, though it shouldn't. I am constantly pouting, then laughing, then throwing a fit, then I calm and collected.

I know I have said I a lot. But I see nothing wrong with that. Like I said if you don't think or act for yourself you won't know who you are. I am slowly starting to really find that out. Now if only school work would stop getting in the way =P

I hope this was a good 1st blog. Idk how often I will do this, or if I'll ever do it again. But there's only one way to find out....