I think the SOM has finally taken it's toll

Here's an update from my last post...

Then:

I was in Rogers City for winter break...and I'm not going to live there anymore...I love saying that. I dont hate my family or the town really...it's just too small for me at this phase of my life. I need to move on.

I was working at ACE, and then going home and sitting on Facebook. I was constantly talking to my friends.

I was bored and miserable sitting in my basement all the time.

I wasn't practicing.



Now:

I'm back in 211 Saxe at CMU. And I love it, except the neighbors could be quieter....like all the time.

I got a job as a Teacher's Assistant for MUS 114.

I've been pretty busy, a solid class schedule, practicing, meetings, practicing...and did i mention practicing?

I love being around my friends again....not saying I have no friend in RC, but it's not the same as being back at CMU (home)



ok now that that has all been said....

I've been in a mood this last week that I cant seem to shake...

It's not depression...

It's not anger....

It's not sorrow...

It's not loathing....

It's not joy (that's fer ser)

I'm not sure what it is....

I alone...

not that i feel neglected...

nor that no one loves me...



I'm just alone....


I don't like it...

and it's tiring me out...





....I think I'll go to bed