Going through the Motions

Every once in awhile I remember that I have this blog. Well today is one of those days.

It's the eve before finals week begins and tomorrow my future is on the line. I'm taking my 3rd shot at my vocal jury.

This time though, I really think I'm going to nail it. If you're reading this before 2:48pm on December 5th, please say a prayer or happy thought (whatever you believe in) for me.

I'm not really nervous. I feel confident and prepared.

But at the same time I feel scared...

If I do fail, I have to pick a new major, and I've worked my ass off to get this far and be told I'm not good enough. So here I go.

Since this jury has been my main focus all semester, I'm not really worried about the rest of my exams. I have to finish a paper by wednesday. I'll get in done.

Other than that, since my last post I've turned 21, but have only really drank a handful of times.

This semester has been ubber busy, and had stressful moments...

but this has probably been my favorite semester.

I'm in a great relationship with a wonderful guy.

My wisdom teeth cut all the way through and I will probs have to get them out....

so ya....that's basically been my life....maybe I'll wrote another 2mro to let you know how my jury went

No Day But Today

It's been awhile...but it's time for another Blog!!!


I should update you on my life since the last one.

I'll try to do it as brief as possible....



Last time I wrote a blog I was going through a funk, I wasn't depressed, but I wasn't happy.

Well that's done and over with.

I am so happy right now...life's not perfect, but it's not supposed to be.

I failed my voice jury again at the end of the semester, so I have one more chance to pass it or else I will no longer be a voice major.   No pressure or anything!

But when one door closes another one opens I guess...since I failed my jury again, I decided to make some changes to see if they will help me. So next year I will be switching voice teachers. Prof. Cora Enman agreed to give me lessons. I'm REALLY excited.

Now to clarify (not that the people that need to read this will), but I have no hard feelings towards Dr. Tucker. I did not leave because we are fighting or that we hate each other. I have nothing but respect for him. We worked together for 2 years, and I have improved a bunch, but clearly I needed to change something to pass my jury. So who ever is telling people otherwise...I'd like it if you didn't...thank you!

Now one of the best things to happen to me this year so far is I have met a wonderful guy, Tyler and we are fast approaching being together officially for 2 months. I hate that it's summer cuz he is home and I am here. But I can't wait to see him soon! This coming Wednesday actually, when he comes down for his piano lesson! I miss him so much.

I am living in my own apartment this summer in Mount Pleasant with the wonderful Adam. Elizabeth and Eric will be moving once school starts. I love it. I have my own space. I walk to work (so I'm getting some exercise lol). I am out of the dorms and back into a double bed!

I am working on campus all summer...and I...LOVE IT!!!!!

I seriously have one of the best jobs ever. I am a Conference Assistant for CMU Summer Camps and Conferences. I work the desks that are open on campus at the time. And starting this coming week I will be a counselor for a boys baseball camp. I will be getting paid to have breakfast, lunch, and dinner with these kids. Then I make sure they are in bed...to do this I get to toss tennisballs at their windows (if their lights are on) and then get to hang out with some of my friends while the young ones sleep.

I love the opportunity that I have been given to work with them. Speaking of opportunities I've been given....I found out yesterday that I will be playing the part of MARK COHEN IN RENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have been dreaming of playing this part since I was like 15. I am so excited for this!!! I have never been given the opportunity to play the character I wanted originally!! It's a character that I can relate to and bring my own personality through. If you're in the Mt. Pleasant area during the 2nd and 3rd weekends of Mount Pleasant you should stop by the Broadway Theater downtown and see the show.

And if you're not in the area....you should be.

That's another thing. I will be making my Broadway debut!!! Lol...get it...the Broadway Theater!!!

Well that's my life in a nutshell. I'm having the time of my life!




Peace and Blessings, Peace, and Blessings,
Mike


P.S. Sorry for any spelling/grammar errors...i dont proofread these...but I'm ok with it.

O hey...i have a blog

Opps...kinda forgot about this

But then outta nowhere I thought about somethign i wrote in one of my earlier blogs...idr what it was now though...that was like 14 hours ago

But here I go...

R u ready for a new blog...

This may get intense...




or not...




anyways...


Basically.....kjasdf kl aypaerw ;awfaeif jf


that's how I feel lately.

It's not necessarily bad...but it's not necessarily good either

I've busy...like really

I had a crazy amount of work these last 2 weeks, and I wore myself out.

I'm got 3 new songs in 1 lesson. And I dont have any of them ready yet :/   but I will...that's my goal for 2mro.

I haven't gotten a good nights sleep in weeks. I've had the chance...but my mind and I don't get along...i want to sleep...it doesn't

I've actually been thinking of personifying my mind by giving it name...

but ya...my mind and I have been fighting a lot lately...

and thus I have slowly been numbing myself to try to keep from experiencing emotions that aren't beneficial to my well being right now

well that sounded sorta suicidal...i swear i'm not

but less tolerant of people's bull shit, and a lot more sassy...

im honestly ok with that though...it's helping me prioritize a lot in my life


this one is kinda random and scatter brained....but so am i lately

I think the SOM has finally taken it's toll

Here's an update from my last post...

Then:

I was in Rogers City for winter break...and I'm not going to live there anymore...I love saying that. I dont hate my family or the town really...it's just too small for me at this phase of my life. I need to move on.

I was working at ACE, and then going home and sitting on Facebook. I was constantly talking to my friends.

I was bored and miserable sitting in my basement all the time.

I wasn't practicing.



Now:

I'm back in 211 Saxe at CMU. And I love it, except the neighbors could be quieter....like all the time.

I got a job as a Teacher's Assistant for MUS 114.

I've been pretty busy, a solid class schedule, practicing, meetings, practicing...and did i mention practicing?

I love being around my friends again....not saying I have no friend in RC, but it's not the same as being back at CMU (home)



ok now that that has all been said....

I've been in a mood this last week that I cant seem to shake...

It's not depression...

It's not anger....

It's not sorrow...

It's not loathing....

It's not joy (that's fer ser)

I'm not sure what it is....

I alone...

not that i feel neglected...

nor that no one loves me...



I'm just alone....


I don't like it...

and it's tiring me out...





....I think I'll go to bed