Going through the Motions

Every once in awhile I remember that I have this blog. Well today is one of those days.

It's the eve before finals week begins and tomorrow my future is on the line. I'm taking my 3rd shot at my vocal jury.

This time though, I really think I'm going to nail it. If you're reading this before 2:48pm on December 5th, please say a prayer or happy thought (whatever you believe in) for me.

I'm not really nervous. I feel confident and prepared.

But at the same time I feel scared...

If I do fail, I have to pick a new major, and I've worked my ass off to get this far and be told I'm not good enough. So here I go.

Since this jury has been my main focus all semester, I'm not really worried about the rest of my exams. I have to finish a paper by wednesday. I'll get in done.

Other than that, since my last post I've turned 21, but have only really drank a handful of times.

This semester has been ubber busy, and had stressful moments...

but this has probably been my favorite semester.

I'm in a great relationship with a wonderful guy.

My wisdom teeth cut all the way through and I will probs have to get them out....

so ya....that's basically been my life....maybe I'll wrote another 2mro to let you know how my jury went

No Day But Today

It's been awhile...but it's time for another Blog!!!


I should update you on my life since the last one.

I'll try to do it as brief as possible....



Last time I wrote a blog I was going through a funk, I wasn't depressed, but I wasn't happy.

Well that's done and over with.

I am so happy right now...life's not perfect, but it's not supposed to be.

I failed my voice jury again at the end of the semester, so I have one more chance to pass it or else I will no longer be a voice major.   No pressure or anything!

But when one door closes another one opens I guess...since I failed my jury again, I decided to make some changes to see if they will help me. So next year I will be switching voice teachers. Prof. Cora Enman agreed to give me lessons. I'm REALLY excited.

Now to clarify (not that the people that need to read this will), but I have no hard feelings towards Dr. Tucker. I did not leave because we are fighting or that we hate each other. I have nothing but respect for him. We worked together for 2 years, and I have improved a bunch, but clearly I needed to change something to pass my jury. So who ever is telling people otherwise...I'd like it if you didn't...thank you!

Now one of the best things to happen to me this year so far is I have met a wonderful guy, Tyler and we are fast approaching being together officially for 2 months. I hate that it's summer cuz he is home and I am here. But I can't wait to see him soon! This coming Wednesday actually, when he comes down for his piano lesson! I miss him so much.

I am living in my own apartment this summer in Mount Pleasant with the wonderful Adam. Elizabeth and Eric will be moving once school starts. I love it. I have my own space. I walk to work (so I'm getting some exercise lol). I am out of the dorms and back into a double bed!

I am working on campus all summer...and I...LOVE IT!!!!!

I seriously have one of the best jobs ever. I am a Conference Assistant for CMU Summer Camps and Conferences. I work the desks that are open on campus at the time. And starting this coming week I will be a counselor for a boys baseball camp. I will be getting paid to have breakfast, lunch, and dinner with these kids. Then I make sure they are in bed...to do this I get to toss tennisballs at their windows (if their lights are on) and then get to hang out with some of my friends while the young ones sleep.

I love the opportunity that I have been given to work with them. Speaking of opportunities I've been given....I found out yesterday that I will be playing the part of MARK COHEN IN RENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have been dreaming of playing this part since I was like 15. I am so excited for this!!! I have never been given the opportunity to play the character I wanted originally!! It's a character that I can relate to and bring my own personality through. If you're in the Mt. Pleasant area during the 2nd and 3rd weekends of Mount Pleasant you should stop by the Broadway Theater downtown and see the show.

And if you're not in the area....you should be.

That's another thing. I will be making my Broadway debut!!! Lol...get it...the Broadway Theater!!!

Well that's my life in a nutshell. I'm having the time of my life!




Peace and Blessings, Peace, and Blessings,
Mike


P.S. Sorry for any spelling/grammar errors...i dont proofread these...but I'm ok with it.

O hey...i have a blog

Opps...kinda forgot about this

But then outta nowhere I thought about somethign i wrote in one of my earlier blogs...idr what it was now though...that was like 14 hours ago

But here I go...

R u ready for a new blog...

This may get intense...




or not...




anyways...


Basically.....kjasdf kl aypaerw ;awfaeif jf


that's how I feel lately.

It's not necessarily bad...but it's not necessarily good either

I've busy...like really

I had a crazy amount of work these last 2 weeks, and I wore myself out.

I'm got 3 new songs in 1 lesson. And I dont have any of them ready yet :/   but I will...that's my goal for 2mro.

I haven't gotten a good nights sleep in weeks. I've had the chance...but my mind and I don't get along...i want to sleep...it doesn't

I've actually been thinking of personifying my mind by giving it name...

but ya...my mind and I have been fighting a lot lately...

and thus I have slowly been numbing myself to try to keep from experiencing emotions that aren't beneficial to my well being right now

well that sounded sorta suicidal...i swear i'm not

but less tolerant of people's bull shit, and a lot more sassy...

im honestly ok with that though...it's helping me prioritize a lot in my life


this one is kinda random and scatter brained....but so am i lately

I think the SOM has finally taken it's toll

Here's an update from my last post...

Then:

I was in Rogers City for winter break...and I'm not going to live there anymore...I love saying that. I dont hate my family or the town really...it's just too small for me at this phase of my life. I need to move on.

I was working at ACE, and then going home and sitting on Facebook. I was constantly talking to my friends.

I was bored and miserable sitting in my basement all the time.

I wasn't practicing.



Now:

I'm back in 211 Saxe at CMU. And I love it, except the neighbors could be quieter....like all the time.

I got a job as a Teacher's Assistant for MUS 114.

I've been pretty busy, a solid class schedule, practicing, meetings, practicing...and did i mention practicing?

I love being around my friends again....not saying I have no friend in RC, but it's not the same as being back at CMU (home)



ok now that that has all been said....

I've been in a mood this last week that I cant seem to shake...

It's not depression...

It's not anger....

It's not sorrow...

It's not loathing....

It's not joy (that's fer ser)

I'm not sure what it is....

I alone...

not that i feel neglected...

nor that no one loves me...



I'm just alone....


I don't like it...

and it's tiring me out...





....I think I'll go to bed

Bring it on.....Not the Cheerleader Movie

So it's been a long and basically uneventful break....kinda like I knew it would...

I'm still working at ACE...

I still have no money...

but at least I have internet, and I'm bored....so let's see what wisdom I and conjure up...I think that's the word I was looking for...



So recently I saw a movie called "How Do You Know?" and I loved it. It basically explained my life in it's current state, but through the situations of the life someone else. That sounds weird, but so am I. It really got me to think about a lot of things, and I really recommend it to everyone reading this.

I was about to type somthing else and facebook distracted me and I forgot...

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still dont remember

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..o ya I was gonna tell you about the quotes..

So the movie had a few quotes that I really like:
     ~ We're all just one small adjustment from making our life's work
     ~ A good idea is one that you don't have to think about
     ~ Figure out what you want and learn to ask for it
     ~ When your in something you gotta give it everything you got or else what are you doing?

Those were the ones that stuck with me....do with them as you might...


I'd also like to thanks those of you that i've been talking to lately...I've been going through an interesting time lately and you've all helped a lot....i haven't been going through a bad time.....just interesting....

I really want to send a great appreciation out to my older brother Bob and my cousins AJ and Clancy... though we haven't been really close over the years...I really hope to see that change, and I have a good feeling it will...Bob, lately I've felt closer to you than I have with any family member (with the exception of Busia, but you know how that works) and i really love it....and AJ and Clancy, I'm glad you two know about my mustache and I can tell that you do care and I love you both a lot for just being you, you've always made me smile when i had to deal with the ridiculousness of my mom and riley when we're around you

This break has really made think about who and what's really important to me, and I can't wait to see where my life is about to take me...

After i leave my Dad's house in less than 2 weeks, I will be leaving for a new Home...I will be staying in Mount Pleasant this summer, and finally be on my own...it's scary, but I'm so ready and so excited. Life is really good if you live it right.


Bring it on.

I got internets in grand ole RC

Well, I've had trouble falling asleep since I got home. So let's see if this helps...


I started working again yesterday, a 10 hour shift, and another today and an 11 2mro....buh

but w/e I'll make some money....

I'm already ready to head back mount pleasant...

I need to get a job there

but I think the main reason I am so ready for it because I will be going back as a resident of Mount Pleasant. This summer I am stayin in my apartment, and that means not comign back to RC!!!! I'm so excited.

I'm currently listening to Julie Andrews sing God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen....so good

I want to travel....i decided that for spring break next year i want to go to Chicago, and to New York the year after that....and who know the year after that

I know this is another kinda boring one, but w/e I'm writing your reading...it's all good

I finished Reading HP and the Deathly Hallows.....SO EPIC!!!!!!!!

I'm complaining a lot cuz I'm in RC, but I'm still pretty happy, things aren't ideal....but they're good...

i'm playing Clarinet for Christmas eve mass...

I'd like to sing but my sinus probs r messing with that...

I'm tired....

My mind is going a mile a minute on the weirdest topics....I just thought about harry potter and 101 dalmatians, and then easter.....

It's time for bed....i'm not even gonna advertise this one on facebook like I have the others



life's good....live it

Headin' on out

Well this will probs be my last blog for awhile. I am going home 2mro, and more than likely won't have internet til I get back to school in 30 days. And I don't like that fact one bit! Not only will I not be up to date on my facebook gossip, but I also won't be able to play mousehunt!

Anyways...I have been really thankful for this semester. I've had a lot of time to think about it today, and this has been one heck of a semester. It's had so many ups and downs I'm surprised I haven't gotten motion sickness.

My grades aren't amazing...but also aren't bad. My friendships have changed so much. Some people that I thought I was going to get super close with, ended up getting on my last nerve, and others that I thought would just be there, ended up helping me the most. I love it.

It just goes to show that you don't know what life is going to throw at you. But that is what makes it fun and worth living. Though the ride is almost never a smooth ride, the checkpoints and the final destination are so worth it.

I think I should be a writer sometimes, cuz this is fun. But then I'd have to good at things like grammar and spelling....I think I'll sick with music.

I don't want to go back to Rogers City. I feel at home here, and finally feel like I really belong.

I love everything that's happened to me lately, even the not so good.

I do miss my Busia, and will enjoy seeing her again...but I don't want to leave.

Right now I am rambling cuz I am bored and have nothing else to do. I'm sorry if this is getting boring lol.

I think I'll end with a random poem that I found via Yahoo Search:

Friendship isn't always easily described. The Eskimos, they say, have a hundred different words for snow. Unfortunately, the English language isn't quite as innovative, though it has vast opportunities to differentiate meaning. Certainly, Love is one of those opportunities. And so, too, is Friendship.
Instead of different words, however, we're stuck with simple adjectives. Close friend. Best friend. Childhood friend. Intimate friend. Trusted friend. Beloved friend. But whether you use adjectives or different words, few could deny the nearly infinite meaning in such a simple word.
Friends are special people. We can't pick our family, and we're sorely limited in the number of them at any rate. Society and mores (and often our own conscience) dictate we select a single mate. But our friends can be as diverse and infinite as the adjectives we choose. Our friends, in a very real sense, reflect the choices we make in life.